Saturday, January 10, 2009

Finally a date

February 19 2009.

That's the date I go see the specialist and start with assessing my current health, I'm not sure if they'll do any kind of diagnostic reproductive testing on this date, that would be nice, get the ball rolling a little faster, I hate waiting.

To be honest, I hate the idea of going to see a specialist for diagnostic testing to see if there are any reasons I'm not getting pregnant again, because sometimes I just don't like the idea of asking for help, and feel like a bit of a failure that I'm not getting pregnant easily. But I guess that's a common feeling in women trying to conceive. I keep trying to remind myself that although in total we've been trying for 18 cycles, those cycles have been broken up over a 2 year period and any individual length of time is not very long (3, 5, 3, 7) I just keep thinking of the 27 months it's been and the 34 months I've been wanting to conceive. OK that's just depressing, so I'm going to stop blogging now.


Julie Julie Bo Boolie said...

{{{HUGS}}} I hope you get some answers soon and I PRAY that by the time you get them you won't need them anymore.

Jenn said...

Julie said what I was thinking. You've already started the ball rolling - I hope that they are quick with their diagnostics and can do something quickly for you if necessary. My sister used Clomid for her dd and then had an oops just shy of 40, that just turned 2, so stay positive, and know that I support you 100%!

hope548 said...

It could end up being something very simple to correct. You have to start somewhere, and you really don't want to wait too long.

Trust me, I know too well all of the feelings you're having, feeling like you're failing as a woman, etc. It's not only common, it is completely normal and valid. I was there and it was very hard. If you ever need to talk about it, you know my email!